the undivine outlier

Hi there. I'm Sarah and I'm 23 years old...I don't know how else to describe myself other than being into Japanese culture since I was 12. I hopped fandoms a lot throughout my teens (fangirl > games > now a mix of both). I'm from the US, if that was not obvious enough :P

As far as being on the internet goes, I slowly stopped using social media after 2018, I wasn't the biggest fan. But I came back online, because all my friends moved on after graduating. I have stayed even more offline since 2020 and I really want to change that somehow. (Am I supposed to put my race here, I'm Asian....(not east asian.....well now you already know :c)

  • Games I really like: Megaten, Rune Factory, Pokemon up to gen 6 (Mystery Dungeon & Ranger spinoffs).
  • I mostly listen to Japanese music now, but in the past I've had many different music phases. I don't use sites like RYM anymore, but I did like vaporwave, rap, etc. as a teenager before circling back to Jrock..
  • I don't read a whole lot now, but I used to love A Series of Unfortunate Events and Cinder. The manga I'm currently reading is Shoulder A Coffin Kuro.

I have many interests, such as tokusatsu, visual kei, JRPGs, etc. I have very recently gotten back into Pokemon despite being a few gens behind ^^; I truly hope to seek out people who also grew up with gen 4 & 5. I also tend to either be too quiet or too chatty in my own words. I've started rediscovering and discovering new interests, which has been cheerful as it is sad.

fangirling (╥﹏╥)

My favorite bandmen ever are Reita and Kyo (they are both amazing and beautiful men who I feel impacted by, personality and music wise). I also like Kaito from Wizard (I think he has a really nice smile), Aki from Laputa, and Hizumi ex. D’espairsray. I'm also a big Sugizo fangirl now too. I try to upload Visual Kei stuff on my YT channel from things that I have bought/songs that are not easily online. I never felt compelled to start being active online again (my horrible personal life irl) until I saw that jrock (or just vkei) had an active community online. I went most of my teen years being shamed for liking Japanese things so I continued being offline/in other communities until recently. I'm happy that it's not a thing of the past though now.

Contact

I currently don't use Discord for a variety of reasons. So if you're interested in contacting me you'll have to do it through last.fm or Protonmail. (kohry@protonmail), sorry. I had a bunch of accounts on forums, etc. but the three I've linked are ones that I check frequently. 

Current thoughts

  • May/??: I finally understand the reason I cried so much whenever I'd play BW2, it's because I wanted Gen 5 to last longer. Idk why this had to be a separate thought, but honestly it's important enough that I felt like I should write this here. Also, it's June. June 8th as I write this. Terrible month so far.
  • 5/9/25: I fucking miss pokemon ranger oh my god I used to even draw the damn sigils from guardian signs everywhere I was soooooo obsessed with latias in 5th grade....I drew that sht thinking she'd fly out to me one day.....pokemon ranger why aren't u real
  • 4/24/25: I've forgotten to update this portion. So yeah....It's April. You know what that means. ;-; On a side note...I've deleted my Reddit account. For those of you who don't know, I used it primarily for toku/vkei stuff but I mainly made it to connect more with other sixth guns after last April happened. I ended up deleting it because in all honesty, I wanted to see more trauma stories from other people who went through very fucked up things like I did, but somehow jrock was able to really help them. Instead, what I got was just glorified instagram with people posting pictures all the time. As time went on, that made me feel even more alone. But I tried convincing myself otherwise. Also someone who did something very touching for me ended up deleting her account (won't get into details), and I felt like I was done. I didn't really make any friends on there, and reddit has far more shitty stuff on there than good things (I don't like the popular parts of it either.) I don't think it's necessary for me to have an account on there as of now.