the undivine outlier

Hi there. I'm Sarah and I'm 23 years old...I don't know how else to describe myself other than being into Japanese culture since I was 12. I hopped fandoms a lot throughout my teens (fangirl > games > now a mix of both). I'm from the US, if that was not obvious enough :P

As far as being on the internet goes, I slowly stopped using social media after 2018, I wasn't the biggest fan. But I came back online, because all my friends moved on after graduating. I have stayed even more offline since 2020 and I really want to change that somehow. (Am I supposed to put my race here, I'm Asian....(not east asian.....well now you already know :c)

  • Games I really like: Megaten, Rune Factory, Pokemon up to gen 6 (Mystery Dungeon & Ranger spinoffs).
  • I mostly listen to Japanese music now, but in the past I've had many different music phases. I don't use sites like RYM anymore, but I did like vaporwave, rap, etc. as a teenager before circling back to Jrock..
  • I don't read a whole lot now, but I used to love A Series of Unfortunate Events and Cinder. The manga I'm currently reading is Shoulder A Coffin Kuro.

I have many interests, such as tokusatsu, visual kei, JRPGs, etc. I have very recently gotten back into Pokemon despite being a few gens behind ^^; I truly hope to seek out people who also grew up with gen 4 & 5. I also tend to either be too quiet or too chatty in my own words. I've started rediscovering and discovering new interests, which has been cheerful as it is sad.

Links

GithubLast.fmBackloggdYouTubevkgy

Other

my drawings blog

fangirling (╥﹏╥)

My favorite bandmen ever are Reita and Kyo (they are both amazing and beautiful men who I feel impacted by, personality and music wise). I also like Kaito from Wizard (I think he has a really nice smile), Aki from Laputa, and Hizumi ex. D’espairsray. I'm also a big Sugizo fangirl now too. I try to upload Visual Kei stuff on my YT channel from things that I have bought/songs that are not easily online. I never felt compelled to start being active online again (my horrible personal life irl) until I saw that jrock (or just vkei) had an active community online. I went most of my teen years being shamed for liking Japanese things so I continued being offline/in other communities until recently. I'm happy that it's not a thing of the past though now.

Contact

I currently don't use Discord for a variety of reasons. So if you're interested in contacting me you'll have to do it through last.fm or Protonmail. (kohry@protonmail), sorry. I had a bunch of accounts on forums, etc. but the three I've linked are ones that I check frequently. 

Current thoughts

  • May/??: I finally understand the reason I cried so much whenever I'd play BW2, it's because I wanted Gen 5 to last longer. Idk why this had to be a separate thought, but honestly it's important enough that I felt like I should write this here. Also, it's June. June 8th as I write this. Terrible month so far.
  • 5/9/25: I fucking miss pokemon ranger oh my god I used to even draw the damn sigils from guardian signs everywhere I was soooooo obsessed with latias in 5th grade....I drew that sht thinking she'd fly out to me one day.....pokemon ranger why aren't u real
  • 4/24/25: I've forgotten to update this portion. So yeah....It's April. You know what that means. ;-; On a side note...I've deleted my Reddit account. For those of you who don't know, I used it primarily for toku/vkei stuff but I mainly made it to connect more with other sixth guns after last April happened. I ended up deleting it because in all honesty, I wanted to see more trauma stories from other people who went through very fucked up things like I did, but somehow jrock was able to really help them. Instead, what I got was just glorified instagram with people posting pictures all the time. As time went on, that made me feel even more alone. But I tried convincing myself otherwise. Also someone who did something very touching for me ended up deleting her account (won't get into details), and I felt like I was done. I didn't really make any friends on there, and reddit has far more shitty stuff on there than good things (I don't like the popular parts of it either.) I don't think it's necessary for me to have an account on there as of now.
"Your soul will always be next to mine..."