im back temporarily @ 9:31 pm 6/1/25
Hey so I'm back. Except it's because something
happened. An archived jrock forum that I used to lurk recently got
taken down, which caused it to go private.
It's sad because I spent a very large chunk of 2024 just sinking my
teeth into browsing that forum. I would always end up there when I had
a very curious question about something I didn't know. Like Satsuki,
Kisaki, things about their character. Or even the old threads of
bandmen that have passed that are remembered to this day, like Daisuke
Ochida and Isshi of Kagrra.
I think I spent the whole summer last year, reading that
forum. And you know what? I really enjoyed it. Because, reading that
forum, even meaningless topics like random thoughts reminded me of how
much calmer things used to be. Or before everything became what it was
now. For those who do not know, I spent my years on Tumblr mostly. So I
know that things were not always like this.
That aside, I went through my internet history today. And I found this
screenshot: From April and May.
So even during the last two months, I was still stumbling upon and
lurking MH. In recent times, (most of April, March, and most of May), I
didn't lurk there too much. But, I did have tabs on my phone of MH. The
reason I ended up finding out today was because I became sick of the
internet feed that everyone is so used to in 2020. Then I remembered MH
existed (again), and then I tried opening a tab on my phone, only to be
met with login. I felt anxious, then I read the recent post on the new
forum.
................
I feel as though this is a subtle (or not so subtle)
way of telling me to lurk Japanese sites more, like Tanuki.
Except.....I feel that bangya on there are probably not as nice to
2010s (and after) bandmen and after. I've not been on there, but from
what I heard it seems to be the case. Also, I'm in no mood to hear
others talk shit right now. I've been somewhat burnt out, (April and
May have been sad for fans of a certain band everyone knows...) so it's
why I haven't been able to lurk the forum as much as before.
That said, I don't even know who or what could've sent a strike to the
site. I'm blaming myself stupidly bc my youtube and new forum have the
same icon. But....I don't really post mega links/torrents anywhere?
I've thought about it, but now I feel like it's not good to do it
anymore. I may post mega links on last.fm like someone did with
avelcain. (Btw I have never posted piracy links at all, I tried waiting
for the right opportunity and that never came.)
Yeah, to be more personal I am stressed. His passing,
can't beat cave story, my life isn't like most people's (those that can
do anything without anyone stopping them irl). That kind of thing. Of
course, coffee would make it worse. Of course.
But i did not know that the site isn't visible anymore...
It was a good site for old news, and I did like the atmosphere there,
especially since it was more forumlike and less....social media-y? I
don't know. I think I just like to lurk and it's good when you listen
to lesser known bands and you need info.
Also, I tried hard if there was any other way to access the site. I
tried seeing if I could view the Lycaon thread (since it was on my
phone unread), and I couldn't.
Also, the Gazette thread on MH was how I found out that the drums in
Taion, or just Traces Vol. 2 were fake. Apparently Kai couldn't play at
the time (maybe it was an accident), but that led to Aoi putting the
drums in himself through FL Studio or Piapro (or whatever the hell they
were using). After finding this out though, I kind of can't really
listen to the Taion remake lol, the fake drums are most obvious in DLN.
I liked that the thread had good critiscim of them, and not the typical
fangirl stuff that you would've found for the band around 2017-18.
Because around that time only diehard fans were following them a lot,
which isn't bad, but there wasn't much discussion for how the music was
made/the musical direction itself. Will miss that thread, even though I
believe I also read the whole thing.
There was also a chart of how the vkei label industry works, like how
Free-Will apparently runs most of the (scene?) and maybe connections to
yakuza? Idk, but I also did not save it.
Knew the forum was gonna die, but didn't think it was that soon. Shit
came out of nowhere. So much shit irl for me and I wish I had spent
more of that time lurking the forum, even though that's literally all I
did for 2024.
SMH my head…..
At the same time, I had thoughts at the back of my
head, like if the forum was gonna go down they could at least make a
torrent of the archive. Now I see why that's not possible, bc of the
amount of personal stuff on there.
…………
I will have to remember as much stuff as I can. Or wait for things to
finally clear up one day.
I just reminded myself of smth that happened in 2017 to my favorite who
passed. I was reading a thread about a younger bandman who talked shit
to him and he had a fierce reply. "Basically I think a band is
something (you give your all into?), so those who don't (understand?)
will disappear." He said something along those lines. But now that
thread is gone. I read it in February and had a slight fit over it, but
man....I wish it didn't go private at such a bad time. I think that
band who talked shit was called Kyogetsu or something.
I was looking forward to reading the forum again this summer, but
things have to come to an end. On the flip side, I have found another
site that talks about lesser known bands but its in polish....I guess I
will settle for that. It's an old site, but I guess I'll have to settle
for it.
I also feel I shouldn't blame myself as much, because I tried very hard
to read as many threads as I could.
But, there really is too much to go through. Too much
to read. I knew this, but still tried to read the forum as much as I
could.
I remember stumbling across a link to a Merry live (that was apparently
subbed), but,,,,,I never knew man. I may have PDFs (or maybe I deleted
them) of one thread that I tried converting to an ereader format so I
could read it in my spare time.
But the thing is....Doing that for every thread....
It's impossible.
Also, the person said the change is "likely permanent", but....I would
hope it's not the case. I'm sure I'm not the only person upset about
this. So I'll have to wait and see in the future if that changes.
Very depressing....I hate google I guess. I can only hope that it does
change, because interacting with anyone about this in order to get
information is going to suck major ass.
Wish god took me instead of him.
I'm sorry.